Confession to make

So here is the day where i reveal to you all the truth that i have autism and i told it to those around me and it's National Autism Day and yes i have autism and always felt very special to me but sometimes i had some trouble and wasn't that much of a good kid back than and i didn't know what i was back than and wish i was very different and those who heard i have autism were jealous of me and sometimes i pick a fight with them and i got into trouble and nearly resulted of me getting suspended and the school itself that i don't want to name cause of how much grunge i have against it and the people there not all of them the teachers and students were fine. 

And lately in High School after going through some special needs education to finish up i try my best to stay vigilant but not all of it went well sometimes i got into trouble and nearly miss out school work which it's very hard for me to say about it. Not only that but i try my best to do what i can try like making new friends and also dating girls since childhood I kept in contact with some of them and there was this girl that i like which we broke up in High school cause she cheated on me and claims to know that i have autism but she didn't and instead was a bad influence and then i let her go and i haven't yet spoken to her and will never will. I Did try to have another one with this person that i met in this program but in 2019 it fall apart and now here am i and not need to. 

It's been hard for me to make this post cause i never will talk much of it or talk about most of those memories and i know that the people or users and the media think of people with autism as a bad influences will they are lying and that's not true other than being jealous of them other than some of the bad ones just made us look bad which is not true and i have autism and accept it around my childhood or teenage years who knows 

To anyone out there i wish the best of luck to anyone with autism don't feel bad just be proud that you have autism and that it is a gift. 

Happy National Autism Day.